Saturday 6 August 2016

(1) Krishna's song - Context


भगवद्गीता
BHAGAVADGITA SIMPLIFIED

AS

WHEN
KRISHNA
SANG AGAIN’


NOTE TO THE READERS

Bhagavad-Gita – the Song Divine is presented here in the most simplified form of an informal dialogue, a conversation, between two close friends which is an almost accurate representation of the actual events that might have occurred.

                                                                                         - Narayanalakshmi




PRAARTHANAA


SALUTATION TO THE GREAT AUTHOR

नमोऽस्तु ते व्यास विशालबुद्धे फुल्लारविन्दायतपत्रनेत्र
येन त्वया भारततैलपूर्णः प्रज्वालितो ज्ञ्नानमयप्रदीपः

Salutations O Vyaasa of extensive intellect!
Your eyes are wide like the fully blossomed lotus-petals
(by the bliss of the Self enjoyed within).
For, you have lighted the lamp of Knowledge filled with the oil of (Mahaa) Bhaarata.


SALUTATION TO THE GREAT TEACHER

वसुदेवसुतं देवं कंसचाणूरमर्दनम्
देवकीपरमानन्दं कृष्णं वन्दे जगद्गुरुम्

Salutation to Krishna the Supreme Teacher of the world,
who is the supreme delight for Devaki (mother);
who is son of Vasudeva;
who killed Kamsa and Chaanoora (the wicked ones).




BHAGAVADGITA- THE SONG DIVINE!

PROLOGUE

What need of an introduction to this great scripture which has been acclaimed in countries all over the world as the most wonderful divine dialogue ever written! Yes! It is a written version of the conversation we have now! In no way it is in the exact format as delivered by Sage Vyaasa to his disciples. The original was just a story of King Bharata in a very short form –comprising about just 8 to 9000 verses. Now it has taken the gigantic form of MahaaBhaarata comprising of 74000 verses. The one in heaven is supposed to contain more than one lakh verses.

This was a story told long ago in the Vedic times. It has made its own time travel and on the way picked up a lot of outside material; discarded some original pieces; and what we now have is just diluted milk or milk-flavored water!
There are also supposed to be many versions of this Mahabharata story which vary according to the listener’s aptitude. If one is philosophically molded he will get only the philosophic version; if one is war oriented, he will get the war-version and so on. The present one we have is supposed to be a war-version which was delivered to King Janamejaya who was more interested in the eighteen days of the Great War between his forefathers than in any Upanishadic philosophy! Unfortunately even this one is a time-corrupted version.

As this story was highly popular, every person who retold the story added his or her own ideas into it.
That is how we even get the caste-system divisions described in a philosophical treatise like Gita. The verses decrying women as sinful creatures also might have been a recent addition to the sacred text.

Coming to Bhagavad-Gita as such, we do not have the exact version here also. In the MahaaBhaarata epic, this Gita occupies a very tiny portion of the whole book. It is just one of the dialogues buried in countless such philosophical dialogues in the book. Actually there are mre excellent philosophical dialogues more informative than this Gita, in the main text. But this particular portion of the epic was extracted by Sri Shankaraachaarya and titled as ‘Bhagavad-Gita’ - ‘the Song of God’; he raised it to the level of Upanishads and Brahma Sutras; and wrote detailed commentaries about all the three. His purpose might have been to make ‘Krishna the Vaishnavite God-head’ into an ‘Upanishadic teacher’. Anyhow we have to take only his version as the most authentic.

Apart from these historical mess-ups what is Gita? It is just a dialogue between two friends.

One of them was a great royal personage - Arjuna!

He was a prince of the greatest dynasty ever at those times; and was the most cherished hero among all. Cheated out of the royal comforts he had to spend his entire childhood in forests with his widowed mother and four brothers. A fire of revenge was lit there which found its culmination only in the great battle of Kuru Kshetra!
The other friend was ‘Krishna the dark one’! Dragged out of the adopted parentage he was forced into royalty by circumstances. Branded as a cowherd who dealt with cow dung and milking, he had to prove every moment of his life that he was not less in intelligence or prowess to anybody else out there. He mastered all Vedas, all weapons, all learning so much so that he was titled ‘Bhagavaan’ – ‘One who excels in all learning’ by the very committee of Sages. He built a port-city making the ocean itself as a moat and safeguarded his Yaadava kingdom. The city was acclaimed as one of the engineering marvels. He amassed enormous wealth through merchandise with foreign countries. He married many princesses and formed many powerful kings as his ally. Though he was insulted many a times by many an arrogant royal personage, Arjuna, the renowned Kuru prince guarded him against all these onslaughts and saw that due respect was given to this Yaadava prince.

Both were victims of circumstances; both nourished lots of wounds from the society; and both supported each other against the unfair world. Their friendship was unique. Their closeness was an envy of their many wives. There was no distinction of class or wealth. They played together, ate together, studied together, fought together, slept together; in fact they were two bodies with one soul. All secrets were shared; all mistakes were confided; all thoughts were exchanged. Both knew each other like one’s own self. They were so much together that people addressed them as ‘Two Krishnas’ rather than call them by separate names! If one was called the other one was sure to pop up! As ‘Krishna’ also means ‘attractive one’ Arjuna the fair one was also a Krishna!

The only secret Krishna Vaasudeva hid from his friend, was his love for Raadhaa. Maybe he thought that this childhood fascination of his for an elderly country girl would have been a topic of ridicule even for Arjuna, a hero who excelled in romantic episodes. Krishna had also never told him that he was a realized Sage in the guise of a prince; that he had mastered all the ‘Siddhis’- ‘magical powers’; that he had studied all the Vedas and was an ardent disciple and assistant of Sage Vyaasa; that he never ever touched his wives but had always managed to please them with hallucinatory experiences. He thought maybe Arjuna was not mature enough to understand all these things. Other than that there was no barrier between these two great men! This other side of Krishna was revealed to Arjuna only at the battlefield of Kuru Kshetra!

When Arjuna saw his own kith and kin standing there to give up life for a puny kingdom, his heart trembled. He was unable to reconcile to the idea that he was going to pierce with his arrows the very bodies which bred him and taught him.

Krishna never felt these qualms. The war was not his doing. He had tried his best to prevent it. But the hatred and envy lurking in the hearts of everyone there from many years had culminated in this gigantic war! Their own Vaasanaas (latent tendencies) had led to this destructive phase!
If not this war, which was fought according to strict rules, they would have fought mindlessly in any way they liked and killed each other. Better fight in a war than have chaotic conflicts. Here at least there was the glory of patriotism and heavens hereafter. So Krishna had watched all the events leading up to the war like a ‘witness’. He had also decided not to be an active partner in the war and also not to wield any weapons. But as a close friend of Arjuna he had taken the horse reins in his hands to veer Arjuna safely in the war-field. He did not mind being called a charioteer; after all his cowherd-name ‘Gopala’ still lingered in all the mouths reminding every one, of his humble beginnings; one more name to get ridiculed in future he did not mind.

But Arjuna was not a realized yogi. His mind faltered at the most crucial hour. An agitation also arose at the extreme unattached attitude of his dark friend. He was envious maybe of his calm disposition. Whatever the reason – he had decided to play the rebel. All the pent up anger at everyone there - including his own brothers – especially his own elder brother whose unearthly patience had brought this state of utter damnation – burst out of the depths of his mind. But for his brother’s command, he and Bheema would have cut the heads of those damned cousins at that very hour Draupadi was dragged to the court and got humiliated. But Yudhishtira was always a big barrier to all their emotions. Because of him he and his brothers and their wife had to undergo untold suffering all these years. Now the battle was ready to be fought. Because of his elder brother, now thousands of families are going to lose their fathers and brothers.

So many bodies are going to shriek in pain as arrows pierced them; as maces cracked them; as horses trampled them; as chariots crushed them; as elephants smashed them to pulp! Arjuna knew his sharp arrows would spare none on the enemy side. Surely all the elders standing there now would be no more after the war. They would get a kingdom filled with widows and orphaned children cursing all the kings and emperors who brought destruction to the land. What happiness can be reserved for even the five valiant brothers also after the war? Everyone will be in tears. After all, the youthful phase of their life was already gone. Now after half the life was over why bring about destruction to one and all! Forest life was not new to them. They can leave the kingdom to their cousins and return to the forests; maybe seek Knowledge from the Sages and attain ‘Moksha’! At least the people of the country would be safe and alive! What mattered to them whether Kauravas were the rulers or Paandavas!

Arjuna felt all these thoughts rushing through his mind, the moment he stepped into the chariot. At least now, he wanted to disobey his elder brother and save the lives of so many people. Maybe people will call him a coward. But it did not matter. He would spend the rest of his life in a cave and feel good that he had prevented all the bloodshed. He was exhausted by all these emotions and decided to quit the scene.

Krishna knew all that went through Arjuna’s mind, yet waited for him to recover. When Arjuna was beyond reason, he had only one course left- to get him out of the battle field and explain to him all the events in a philosophical way. After a few hours of talks, he somehow removed all the negative feelings in his friend’s mind and got the battle going.

This is the context of the acclaimed divine dialogue.
What conversation ensued between them – we have no audio video recordings of the same!
Sri Shankaraachaarya has given us only the philosophical version of the Gita!
Whether the two friends talked anything more of their own life- we do not know!
Whether Sage Vyaasa got the whole dialogue or a censored version- that also we do not know!
At least let us not be blind to reason and imagine that both the armies on the battlefield stood frozen magically for two hours or so, while the two friends posed as a God and a disciple in the centre; so that the future generations would worship them in that posture painted on a canvas.

A battle field is a battle field; not a lecture hall.
The clangs of the metallic weapons; the neighs of horses; trumpets of elephants; dust raising chariots; whispering murmurs of countless soldiers; such a noisy atmosphere is definitely not conducive for a serious conversation between a broken heart and a soothing medic.

Here is an attempt to bring the real scenes of the conversation alive. A thorough research was done analyzing each verse of the sacred book and a most probable scenario was brought forth. This version of the Gita is not the verse to verse dry translation the text. Rather the whole scene of the conversation, taking into account the closeness that was between Krishna and Arjuna and the psychological background of both the friends, is recreated as it were here.

No personal opinions are added; no modified meanings are presented; but this work just gives Gita as it was; a conversation between two friends.



BHAGAVADGITA
SIMPLIFIED

[WHEN KRISHNA SANG AGAIN]

 PART ONE


THE CONTEXT

Here again begins a story of a battle-field;
a field akin to your house-field.
The story here is nothing but your own story.
The war is fought in truth not with swords;
but with thoughts and ideas that you have stored so far!

There, on the battle-ground of ‘Kuru Kshetra’
assembled all the warriors;
hearts trembling with excitement; who would win, who would lose?
Nobody knew; for, equal was their prowess!

On one side waited the Kauravas;
ready to kill  but  filled with guilt.
On the other side stood the army of Paandavas;
ready to fight but afraid to kill.

 Their battle is not the one seen on the T.V. serials.
For, it was too magnificent to fill the 30” screen.
Nor did they wear costumes made of cheap plastic
but were decked in heavy armor.

Warriors of those days were not the
puny bodies you see on the screen;
but could reach the roof of your house
if they ever stood straight.

The bows and arrows held in their hands
weighed tons as far as I know;
and had you ever been there, you
would have fallen under their heavy weight!

Elephants and horses filled up the scene
like the black and white clouds floating in the expanse of the sky.
And colorful were their beautiful head-gear
like the hues of a million ‘Bows of Indra’ thrown together!

All warriors wore a ‘Tilak’ on their foreheads
applied by the trembling hands of their mothers and wives!
The pictures of their little sons and daughters filled their minds;
but their reddened eyes glared ferociously at their enemies!

Would they ever return in the evening to the lovely embraces of their wives?
Or enter the ‘other world’ to wander aimlessly?
Or, maybe if they fought with courage, they may end up in ‘Veera Swarga’
and enjoy the bliss of the heaven forever!

But if they were wounded or fractured
in the ensuing war;
they may get trampled and crushed by the wheels of the chariots
to lie in a gory bed of blood and flesh.

War was never pleasant
whether it was there, or here, then or now.
The winning credit always goes to the leaders;
not to the men who really fought.

In the game of politics, don’t these
poor souls play the part of the pawns
only to bleed till death and leave
their families forlorn?

Well, to come back to our story
of the battle-field,
both the armies stood facing each other
ready to fight but afraid to begin!

The elders of the party,
now ‘the vowed enemies of the Paandavas’
stood still as if they were unconcerned;
for, they were in that ‘field’ not to kill relentlessly
but led by the ‘loyalty’ they cherished for the king.

Nor would the Paandavas blow their conches -
so that the fight could begin and screams tear the sky!
They were afraid they might be wrong.
How could they kill their kith and kin
even if their stupid cousins had done something wrong?

A deathly silence pervaded the whole ‘field’.
Nobody breathed for fear of getting heard.
Even the animals understood these anxious vibrations
and they also stood still as if painted on a canvas!

Duryodhana, who was the cause of all these affairs
nervously glanced from side to side.
Neither could he escape, nor could he face the family elders;
he knew he was wrong;
but he held his head high as if nothing was wrong.

Unobserved by any he glanced at Bheema, his sworn enemy;
whose rugged face was swollen with fury.
In his hearts of hearts, the son of the blind king knew
that his own heart would be ripped apart by those strong hands
and his thighs would be broken with that mace of his.
Had he not done an action against Dharma
when he had forced  the ‘chaste lady’ to the court?

Too arrogant at that time was he
and was blind to the results of his action
like his father; the old senseless emperor of Kuru dynasty
whose inner eyes were also as non-functional as his outer ones!
A deed was done and gone with;
but the consequences arose here
in this great ‘Battle-field of Kuru Kshetra’!

 And, his furious foe, the tall and handsome Bheema
was absorbed in his own thoughts for that moment.
He had left his tent in a confused mood;
the morning incidents had disturbed his mind!

There, his pretty wife Draupadi,
pretty even after all these years,
had held his hands secretly behind a tree!
Nothing had she spoken;
but her eyes had said everything he wanted to know!

Tears were up to the brim
but held back by her long eye-lashes.
All the insults she had borne shone in those eyes
pleading with him to avenge their plight.

A scene from a woman’s life flashed forth there;
a slave of an ‘evil man’ once she was;
even with five magnificent husbands,
the envy of the three worlds!
Though she had fought tooth and nail;
though she had quoted all the scriptures and argued;
nobody had listened!
Wasn’t she a ‘woman’
branded forever as the weaker sex?
Her plight in the court of Kauravas
has been sung by devotees
to extol the praises of Krishna;
has been paraded on the screen
as the most decent rape-scene;
has increased the sales in the textile shops
to be advertised as the ‘Draupadi-Sari’!

But did even one, at least one person
feel the cold blood dripping from her heart?
Did one woman cry and
feel the angry throbs of her wounded heart?

 No! Nobody! Nobody but Bheema
understood her  silent cry;
and, Bheema had sworn that the
accursed Dusshaasana would be torn apart;
and, with his blood would her
unwound hair would be oiled
and combed with the broken bones of that idiot!

Draupadi felt a ‘drop’ of joy in that accursed life;
where one husband at least of all the five
was her ‘true love’ and bled  for her in his heart!

And that joy trickled down to form
a fountain at the cherished thought of
the dark-hued hero who had always come to her rescue
at a mere call from her heart!

She had adored that charming form
all through her youth
and would have worshipped those lotus feet
till death claimed her body!

By the play of fate she had been married to the fair-hued hero
and became a reward for his prowess in archery!
A woman even if she be a maiden born out of the sacred fire
enjoyed no freedom in this accursed world!

Bheema as he stood behind the ‘peepul’ tree;
holding in his embrace - his dearest queen,
knew all this; yet smiled with pretended fury
and he promised in that smile all that his queen wanted.

This time, it was not the white
‘Paarijaata’ flower she wished for;
but the reddened bones of that senseless wretch
and an embrace from his blood-soaked hands
wet from the blood of the other brother!

 Bheema walked towards Arjuna’s tent
in a pensive mood.
‘Paartha’ had sent a message to him
to meet him there.
Bheema felt a shiver in his heart
as if the end of the world was near!

Arjuna, the fair-hued hero had confused him again.
All the forest-life and preparation for the battle;
and now, he lectured about the evilness of the war
as if he was a saint straight coming down from a forest.

If war was evil, then
why did that handsome hero please all the Gods
and collect all the weapons powered with ‘hymns’
if it was only to stop the war at the beginning itself?

Bheema had been too tired to argue
and just treaded like a robot
towards the ‘Great -Field’ nick named
as ‘Dharma-Kshetra’;
What was Dharma, his mind questioned!

Was it not right to fight the wicked,
whatever be the end, good or bad?
His mind answered; ‘yes’; for, it was not like
the ‘untrained mind’ of his younger brother;
but ever kept under vigilance
in the state of the ‘Witness’!

Krishna, his darling friend,
though young in age was wise beyond years;
and he had taught him the techniques of getting ‘True Bliss’.
And whatever he said was indeed right.

And Krishna - the dark-hued warrior was
jumping around like  a young boy;
hopping from tent to tent;
filling all with words of hope!

Not only were the magnificent leaders visited;
but even foot-soldiers did not escape his glance!
For, Krishna had heard in his ‘vision’,
the piercing screams of their wives
withering on the ground drenched with blood
beating their chests in untold agony!

All battles ended only in tragedies
and nobody had given a thought to these nameless men
who for the sake of the king were ready to kill ruthlessly
and shed their blood too, if needed!

They never knew ‘words of quotes’;
nor could they give a high-sounding speech;
nor did they have names famed enough
to echo in the quarters!

They knew only one thing and believed only one thing;
that their king was right!
Was their king right, by any chance?

Their ‘King of Might’
the ‘righteous’ Yudhishtira
a king ‘without a kingdom yet’
was also troubled at heart!

He also wondered
whether this war was right!
His heart shuddered at the very thought of
piercing his grand-pa with a sharpened arrow!

The entire battlefield was tense and tired!
The two sons of Maadri fidgeted in their chariots.
Time was running out and
the auspicious moment might be lost!

The deadly silence was then broken
by the mighty voice of the Kaurava king!

Duryodhana had somehow gathered up his courage
and encouraged by the ‘knowing glances’ of his brothers
had walked with a majestic gait and
approached the golden chariot of his Guru,
as the only possible step in starting the ‘fight’!
He gave a big discourse
on the prowess of his army
and mentioned loudly
the names of all those who made up his army!

As each name was mentioned,
those honored souls stood up straight
and felt their ice-cold hearts
warming up with courage!

Drona glanced uninterestingly at his poor disciple!
He hated all this; yet he was here!
Oh! Why did he ever get employed in the ‘Royal Chambers’
he wondered!
He had lost the peace enjoyed in his ‘poverty-stricken life’!
Now he was rich and famous; but where was his ‘peace’?

Duryodhana’s words just brushed past his ears.
His mind was elsewhere nursing his own wounds.
His heart longed to embrace his dearest student Arjuna;
but he just stood  there like a statue, bound by the ‘cords of duty’!

He had indeed blessed that wonderful son of Paandu
and embraced him in the morning
when he had visited him!
Arjuna had walked straight towards his Guru
and had held his feet for long
as if afraid to let it go!
‘Was there fear or confusion in his eyes?’-
Drona wondered!

Drona had hurriedly moved away to attend to his own duties!
He had no time to spare even Arjuna, a moment of advice!
He had to get ready to fight along with the ‘commander of the army’!
He could not resist the bubbling ‘excitement of war’!

This day was a ‘special day’,
when he could really see
all the prowess of his students
even if they fought each other
craving blood for blood!

Drona’s mind woke up to the present scene of battle
at the mention of the venerable Bheeshma,
another honored elder caught in the trap of duty!
‘What went on in the old man’s mind?’- nobody knew!
his face was always wooden
and never betrayed his inner-most thoughts!

But, he had not missed the quick exchange of glances
between the venerable old man
and the dark hero of Dwaaraka!
What they smiled at, Drona wondered!

Always these two talked not with words but with eyes!
‘And why shouldn’t they smile?’ - Drona concluded;
Theirs was a world beyond the ‘humdrum’ of this unreal world;
and everything was a ‘play’ which they thoroughly enjoyed!

His reverie was suddenly broken by the sound of the conch
majestically blown by the grand old sire Bheeshma!
The ever-alert old man, on seeing the ‘lost look’ on Drona’s face,
had immediately rescued the situation by the blow of his conch!

The sudden conch sound was enough to wake up the ‘sleeping’ crowd!
Various war-drums echoed forth as a single wave of sound
inviting the ‘Lord of Death’ to come and dance there at once!

Krishna took the cue from Bheeshma
and blew his mighty conch- ‘Paanchajanya’-
a hard earned treasure of his, reminding everyone there
of the daring adventures of his past life!

Bheema followed forth! He had a satisfied look!
He had managed to fill his belly with Krishna’s help!
He had swallowed all the ‘offerings’
given by the adorers to their ‘Dark-God’ !
Whenever he had a chance he never missed any act
that could show out his own gratitude to the cowherd-king!
He submerged all other sounds of the war-field
with a ‘mighty puff’ at his own conch-‘Poundra’!

Arjuna did the same! But his conch sounded a little hollow!
He had felt like crying; but couldn’t somehow do it!
He waited for a few minutes till all the tumult was over.
As the echoes of all the conches subsided,
the clangs and clutters of the weapons blasted his  ears!

He spoke hurriedly, looking at Krishna,
as if he would understand the plight he was at.
“Station my chariot in between the two armies, my friend,
so I can glance at the warriors with whom I am about to fight”!

Arjuna tried his best to sound majestic,
but failed miserably!
He didn’t miss the quizzical smile of his friend,
flashing forth like a lightning!

Like an obedient charioteer, the Yaadava King
stationed the chariot exactly in front of the
vehicles adorned by his cousins, Guru, and his grandfather;
and watched Arjuna with an amused look!

Little did he know what went on in Arjuna’s mind!
Or, did he know and yet pretend ignorance?
Who has been able to fathom his mind at any time
except his ‘precious’ Raadhikaa,
who now smiled as his very ‘thought’ every moment!

Failing to draw his friend out, choking in the throat,
the best archer glanced at the enemy army in front.
The clangs and clatters had stopped as if in reverence
to the best warrior the world ever  saw!


But our hero was in the least mood for heroic acts;
for his mind was now shattered like glass!
In each of the broken piece of glass- shone forth-
his countless confused thoughts!
His mind was now a jumble of questions,
the answers for which never could be
found in his weapons!

In one of the shattered pieces his heart held
smiled his majestic queen of dark hue!
So majestic was she in her looks
that he never had felt comfortable in front of her.

The knowledge that shone forth in her eyes
always made him tremble when he held her hands.
‘Was she truly in love with him’ he wondered,
or married him to save the face of her father’?

He never knew and never had the courage to ask her;
‘Was it right for all the five brothers to marry her?
Shouldn’t they have asked her permission
before they did anything with her?’

How pretty and innocent her smile was
in that grand Svayamvara hall of King Drupada;
but never did he see that smile again,
once she had entered their house
as a ‘fruit’ to be shared by all!

Was she really happy or not, nobody knew;
for- their own guilt had made their mouths silent he knew;
only in the company of the ‘flute-player’ did she ever smile so joyously
like a flower bloomed forth in spring;
but rest of the time she smiled like a flower in a vase
rudely removed from the creeper!

He had indeed married many a queens;
but none he knew equaled the Paandava Queen!
Yet, Subhadraa, a charming beauty, like her brother,
had filled his heart with love supreme for ever!
‘My own son Abhimanyu is here now, to bring my name into clear’
so thought the unfortunate father, as the face of the young boy
smiled in his mind-mirror!
Little did he know the fate of his dearest son was sealed forever!

The mischievous friend of his, though he knew all,
would lead his cousin silently through the dark tunnels of this war!

Like his own brave son Abhimanyu
stood many a young lad arrayed on that day;
many would return; but more would die
never to see their mothers’ faces again!

Arjuna’s heart trembled at the thought
that his son might meet the same fate;
but his warrior’s heart brushed away
all those thoughts with force!

His hand was itching
to take the Gaandiva bow
and blast forth those demons
who stood there facing him!

He- the greatest archer in the whole world;
he- who had amassed various weapons by the power of penance;
he- who had fought with the Great Shiva;
he- the favorite student of the Great Guru Dronaachaarya;
he- the holder of Gaandiva;
he- who had refused the amorous embraces of even Urvashi,
the heavenly damsel;
he- by the mention of whose name the entire earth trembled;
he- the Great Arjuna -
what was this army for him?

He could destroy all the enemies at a moment’s notice;
make these Kauravas vanish from this earth forever;
save Draupadi’s honor by sweet revenge;
but yet, why did his stupid heart tremble now?


He glanced at the dark-hued charioteer.
That cow-herd looked least bothered;
he was busy looking at an eagle flying afar!
Where his thoughts were, who can fathom?
He had never understood that flute-player till now!

How could he remain so cool and calm,
was beyond his sphere; he wanted to confide;
but something in his heart stopped him;
was it pride, was it his royal blood,
or was it his own built-up courage?

No! He could not fight this war!
He could not bear to kill these elders!
To hell with his brother, his wife, with everything!
Let anything happen; he would not fight!

How can he kill so many people and
yet call it Dharma?
Let these idiots have the kingdom;
who wants this blood-stained throne?
How could he ruthlessly cut his Guru’s neck;
the Guru who had blessed him affectionately
just at dawn the same day?
And the great grand father;
how can he pierce that old worn out body
with sharp deadly arrows and kill?

Those boys, who were mounted on the steeds -
yes; next to Duryodhana; they..; yes..;
they had once sat by his side and
learnt all about archery from him.
Even now their innocence shone forth on their faces!

And all these men who were standing here,
didn’t they have families, kith and kin?
Would their wives be left to mourn their deaths?
And the little flowers that adorned their houses;
the little boys and girls playing around in their gardens;
would they be left fatherless and become orphans?

What would their city be like after the war?
Arjuna’s mind shuddered at the very thought;
a city filled with wails and screams;
widows left alive to be consumed by the lustful vultures;
morals flying away at the touch of the passion;
Dharma thrown to dogs, as a result of this blood-thirsty war!

No, No! Never should this happen!
I will stop the war - so he thought
and felt that he could convince somehow
the wise cow-herd with his speech!

And on and on he talked; arguing vehemently!
He lectured well about the evils of war,
and all that Dharma would have to face;
but as he spoke, and as he choked,
his friend’s face remained unchanged.
Not one single word of that well-worded discourse
convinced him and his eyes were laughing as it were
at the great warrior’s plight!

Arjuna felt that he could stand it no more.
He was slightly irritated too!
This flute-player had been so calm
and had not reacted,
even when he had said that he will give away his kingdom
to his own wicked cousin brothers.
What did he know of this poor man’s plight?

The Yaadava Prince had just brushed all his comments away,
and had advised him harshly to get up and fight.
Failing to convince him by his sociology lecture,
the fair prince at last confided his innermost fears to his friend
and said that he could never fight his elders.
He would be rather in a forest as a mendicant;
but never would he lift a finger against his fathers!

 Seeing the expressionless face of the charioteer,
Arjuna understood that his argument led him nowhere!
His eyes were filled with tears.
Nobody understood his righteous fears, he thought -
neither his brothers, nor his friend Gopala!

Arjuna threw away his bow in disgust!
He sat down as if burdened by his own guilt!
He announced firmly to his amused friend -
“I will not fight”, and remained silent,
holding his chin with his hands!

Before the situation went out of hand
Krishna signaled Bheeshma with his eyes
and rode the chariot to the corner of the battle-field
away from the curious glances of the onlookers!

He of course knew the plight of his cousin!
But, was this the time to break down like this?
Kith and kin! Didn’t he have any?
Wasn’t his uncle his own enemy?
Hadn’t he strangled his neck and forced the life out of him,
to avenge the imprisonment of his parents?

‘Well, this Arjuna needs a lesson’, he thought
and got ready to blast him to senses.
He knew Bheeshma would manage for a few minutes
the confusion that had risen fresh at this hour!

“The battle will begin after some time; everybody relax.”
was the command of  the Grand-sire!
And relieved as it were, everybody waited.
Yet curious whispers spread like waves,
about what serious talks went on between the dark and fair friends!

Stopping the chariot away from the din,
Krishna chided his friend with a smile!




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